Nov 03 2010

Being Not Doing

Published by at 9:07 am under Life/Death


Being Not Doing

For the past couple of months, I have been “doing” a great deal: the Basic PSYCH-K course, a visit to my sister, my 10~10~10 Convergence trip to Arizona, the Advanced PSYCH-K course, etc. Lots of doing! Since returning home, it has been difficult for me to get back into the swing of life now that I don’t have so much to do and no definite plans to go anywhere.

At first I thought perhaps I was suffering from post-wonderful-events-letdown, and it’s possible that’s a contributor to my unmotivated state of mind.

When you’re with a group of like-minded individuals (and there were almost 500 at the 10~10~10 event), the energy is very high and it feels wonderful. Coming home definitely took some adjustment after the excitement and thrill of being somewhere completely new.

It would be easy to wish I was still there amongst all the “differentness”. Doing the day-to-day chores such as shopping, cooking and cleaning was a far cry from having my bed made for me, and “Where shall we eat today?” “Oh, I don’t know. What do you feel like?” Coming home is a reality check. No wonder I found it difficult to get back into routine!

However, I realized a couple of days ago that I should take advantage of this period. So often, we’re busy with this and that and rarely have an opportunity to just relax and let go of the “must dos”. Does it matter if I don’t vacuum or wash my dishes? In the grand scheme of things, it’s not high on my priority list, that’s for sure.

Giving ourselves permission to just “Be” rarely comes naturally to us. There are all those expectations from your self… and probably from others if you have visitors. If your a doer like me, it’s not easy to let things be – especially myself. But I’m working on it!

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